I Talk To Myself

The decisions you make each day are either based on fear or love.  Think about your day, you make choices and decisions in each moment on how to react and respond to the world around you.  Would you say that you make your choices with love or do you make them out of fear.  It is cold outside, do you put on a hat and coat because you love your body and want to make sure it is comfortable or because you are afraid of being cold or getting sick or not wear one at all because you don't want to look silly.  You go to college because you love school and love the field you are going into or because your afraid if you don't you will be shunned by your family or afraid you won't be able to support yourself in life or because everyone else is so you don't want to look like a fool.  You make negative judgments about others out of fear of not being good enough yourself.  Choosing love is not the easiest choice, fear is way easier to side with because it makes you feel ...

A brand new year.   What is it about the number changing on the calendar that makes one want change themselves, when it is available to do at any time?   At the end of a year, I like to look back and see all the good that happened, I also like to find areas I want to improve upon. I really did have a good year despite my health problems and lack of enthusiasm for my job.   I was able to travel to a new county, go camping with my family and try new art forms.   I improved my website and listed things to sell and started this blog.   New opportunities showed up throughout the year and I went for them and feel good that I did, even though none of them worked out.   I even finished my unfinished projects that I had intended to finish when 2018 first began.   I have many intentions for the upcoming year.   I want to publish my book, my health is always on the list of things to improve (I am actually kind of sick of this one having to b...

In my dream last night, the doctor told me my problem was uncertainty.  It amuses me when the universe gives me clues to my journey while I am sleeping. I have never had a problem with uncertainty before, I have always just known what was to be and believed that knowing with all my heart.  My life followed those knowings to a tee, not wavering from the path that I had set forth.  Why is it that now I am uncertain about my life?  It is because I am uncertain with who I am, and what I want.  How was it so easy to have faith in the process when I was young? It is as if I have no idea where my life is going now.  Should I know?  Should I be demanding to know what's next?  How can I embrace this realm of unknowings? Blind trust.  I have always needed to know what's next.  Not knowing what's next has always given me anxiety or fear in some way, shape or form. There has been a bit of unease within me not knowing how, what or where to go n...