I Talk To Myself

I am finished!  It is funny how the one thing that holds you back from finishing something is often the easiest thing to do.  For my doll project, it was the hair, particularly the boy hair.  I knew I didn't what to tie the hair like I did for the girls, that meant I had to learn something new, which in my mind would be hard.  As it turned out, it was the easiest part of the entire project. I am grateful I was able to finish these projects that have been weighing on me since 2010!  8 years I have held onto these unfinished dolls, bibs and potluck holders.  That is a long time to hold onto anything weighing on you.  My bibs have been given away, potluck holders gifted and now my dolls will go to a new home today at a home daycare center.  I know they will be loved and played, just the way I intended for them when I first started to create them. Now on to my many books in my head all the art work that comes with them.  I hope this has inspired you to clear some of your creative c

I have made some progress on my unfinished projects.  I was able to finish the rest of the bibs that I had, as well as get all of the bibs out of storage that I have made over the years and get them out of my house.  I gave a few to a friend who knows someone that is having a baby and I gave the rest, a whole bag full, to our local women's shelter. My next project was my potluck holders.  I had no takers on these, so I finished them up and decided to fill them with cookies and give them away to friends. Still have yet to work on those dolls.  I hope I get the energy to actually finish them by the end of the year.  Seriously, they only need hair and faces, you'd think I could just jump right on those and get them done, but I just don't know what to do with them when they're finished.

My intention is a good one, but my mind says otherwise.  I recently went to see my doctor.  It was a visit I had planned awhile back just to check in, and I almost cancelled it because I was/ am feeling quite well.  For those just getting to know me, I deal with autoimmune issues and some days/ months I feel great and others not so much.  I have tried exercise, managing stress, yoga, meditation, supplements and changing my diet and all have helped in some minor way.  It is like I am in a million pieces and I cant seem to figure out how to put me back together. But here's the catch 22.  When I am feeling like crap and my body feels like it is going to quit, my blood work is normal and there is nothing found, and then when I am feeling great like I am today, my blood work says otherwise. Low iron, low vitamin D, and to top it all off my liver enzymes are high.  It is just frustrating when you are doing all the "right" things and feel "good" to have your results

This time of the year causes a lot of stress for many people.  Parties, holiday shopping, less daylight, cold and snow are just a few of the stressful items on the year of the year list.  Some people become so stressed that it is hard for them to function or enjoy what this season has to offer.  They forget to play and laugh and become a regular scrooge.    Stress has a way of blocking your joy. I have always had this problem with stress.  Although over the years I have gotten better at managing stress or at least managing what I believe causes me stress. Or perhaps I am just better able to let things go that I know are not in my control. This past week was a busy one for our family.  Every night was booked with something, leading to long days and nights. Not leaving room for my regular routines really stresses me out and leaves me feeling drained rather than joyous. But there is also just something about this time of year that makes me space out.  All I want to do is be home, wat